A Collection of Poems on this Sunday Morning…
Good morning y’all! In the spirit of some headspace and this ongoing rush of creativity coursing through and out of me, here are a handful of poems I’ve written recently. Enjoy :) and I’d love it for you to let me know what you think/how these landed. Sending love and light today. You are the love and light today, and everyday… duh.
Fuck You Cockroach
I’m addicted
To the isolation
How long must my spirit live in this deflation?
Lives he unconvicted
But me, here alone as predicted.
I’m addicted
To the isolation
Yet the narration- still one of frustration.
Is it only I that lives afflicted?
They say ‘You are not alone’
But it feels there are many undepicted?
You got my body, must you take my light too?
My joy? My zest for life? My happiness and peace?
I guess all I must say now
As the end of my poem does approach
Is Fuck You, cockroach.
The Agony of Your Violence
Every part of me is broken
Beyond repair
I’m drowning in despair
This pain I carry, a token
Of the eternal chill in the air
When you raped me as I laid bare
Every part of me is broken
Beyond repair.
Alone in the Dark
I am not a number
I am not the one in five women
I am a woman
Who no longer carries a load she can bear
Who no longer knows a life that is light, joyful, giving.
They say the answer is to just be here.
What happens when ‘here’ is no longer forgiving?
Is there hope near?
Or will my days remain a reliving?
Someone Special
I felt so safe with you
Why did you have to do
That thing they all do
Like I didn’t matter to you
Was it not true?
I’m sorry my voice triggered you
But I still think you’re a piece of poo
1:09am in West Texas
For a moment, I was bewildered
How do I feel safer here?
Home is far from near
El Paso remains too distant to hear
Is it because he is not near?
Then, a laugh finds me
I remember the real fear lays incredibly near
My own mind
My mind that used to be a bit more kind
Now impossible to find
My mind that’s left me afraid of the dark
Not even to feel safe upon closing my eyes at the park
I Am Still Here
Full of fear
I am still here
I thought
Because of the fear
I could not be here
Now I see
Full of fear
I am still here
My breath is here
My feet are here
My heart is here
I am still here
I befriend the fear
But it is not my guide
No longer do I hide
I am still here
Relief is near
A shooting star?!
I am still here
Relief is so near
Full of fear
I hold it near
Together
We are still here.
Feelings on the Road
I wish you here with me
To keep me safe
To hold my feet in the cold plunge
To look at me the way you do
What have I done?
You’re the one I want to call
You’re the one I want to catch me when I fall
Can I get a re-run?
To be made safe with you
Was like a sea of emptiness, then one comes into view
But it felt selfish to keep you around not for you
Rather what you were able to do
So now I sit here in agony, alone
I had to let the truth be known
For someone as special as you deserved to be let free
Even if never to come back to me…
So for now I weep
I ache
But the memories with you I do keep.
#11/1/22 7:11pm
From the Mountains to the Sea
From the mountains to the sea
I simply must hold nature dear to me
For this is the place we are meant to be
Where we are nothing but
Totally free
A World Unburdened
I dream of a world
Where providing love is enough
Where Lesley had somewhere to go
Where rape and sexual violence were shameful remnants of our past
Where young women don’t spend their days treated as less than human at Austin Oaks Hospital
But here we are
The messiness of the present
A bridge between the pain of our past
And the hope of our future
We find ourselves locked in to this here now moment
Why not embrace it?
Why not be with it as it is?
Why not make love to it, even?
Why not believe that is precisely what you have been worthy of all along?
The play in this here now moment
The love in this here now moment
The truth in this here now moment
Joy is my truth
Stillness is my truth
Love is my truth
What will yours be?
Why not join me?
And together may we be
As still and blossoming as this big tree
Found here in front of me
As things were always meant to be
All happening For Me.
#10/27/22 3:05pm
Maybe
Maybe the way to be free
Is to just let it be
Thanks for being here! I appreciate you and I celebrate you and your light, today and everyday.